I was working this morning to get billing out and realized why I was so uptight about Jordan moving in with us. It hit me like a freight train. I was afraid that I would be ignored and my marriage would end up like my first one.
Let me back up a little bit. When I was married the first time, Jim's cousin would come over every night, maybe not every night but it seemed like it. Jim and Robert would sit and talk about farming all night long. Wasn't it enough that they farmed all day? So I eventually got to the point that I just tuned them out. I would hear things once in a while. Mostly in the most inopportune times, just in time for them to insult me to see if I was paying attention. No wonder I had no self esteem once it was all over.
We are just finishing up week 2 and it has not been too bad. I must admit in the first week I had my moments of resenting having an extra person around all the time. This week has been a lot better. And tomorrow is date night. Taggart here we come! We will see what week 3 brings, especially since Casey will be in Idaho fishing.
Isn't it great that we can learn from our past and can make the necessary changes? It may have taken me 15 years to learn this lesson but it sure was worth it.
